Mr David Brooks I think said writing’s about working out your own shit…. in public. and usually there’s some value in it for other people, too. I don’t think anyone in my family is Actually anti Semitic… on a good day, I think even my parents would agree that people should be judged by the content of their character…. on a case by case basis. There is ongoing discussion about what that “Content” should be… but that’s a story for another day.
they… they also say, you need to spend as much time walking out of the woods…. as you did getting lost in there. Some kind of metaphor. and Probably more or less accurate. So the mindfuckery, for me began in 1998. we’re going to America. hehe. it’s better there. that’s what they said. we won a Lottery. In 2011, I believe the mindfuckery began to end. I had a spiritual awakening. So what is that? 12 or 13 years each way. Sounds about right.
I understand that there is some confusion about what actually happened in 1991. I suppose much of the West saw it as some kind of victory? Whereas… if you pay attention to people like… Gorbachev… Jeff Sachs… maybe Mearsheimer… the idea was to establish friendly relations after Russia decided to abandon communism… something like that. Hence the LOTTERY.
But, honestly, as I’ve written here, and elsewhere, I can’t see what great good it did me, so far, to move to the States, from Russia. Everyone seems to work a lot. My mom used to get upset and start packing her bags every 6 months or so… hehe. And now I’m begging “Them” to send me back to Russia. Because I don’t understand. I really do not understand what the hell is going on around here. They said the schools are great. Well I believe I did test that theory. University of Michigan. I am an alcoholic. thank you. now what? I remember taking a Marriage & Family class. So I think I did my part… hehe. I am still not married. The main thing I remember learning is that The Family is an extremely violent institution. Fair enough. Perhaps those are the facts. I won’t argue. But I don’t recall hearing any Great solutions worthy of a Great institution… University of Michigan… ahem.
Another major source of confusion, for me was… I began to run into these… uhh… well Russian Jews I guess. I understand they left as refugees a few years earlier. Mostly worked in engineering fields. A lot of them got jobs within the auto industry. I mean… I don’t know. I suspect they may have had more reasons to Leave Russia or USSR than we did… but the fact they were better off than my parents and I really disturbed me. I mean. what the hell. I’m a goddamn lottery winner. That’s what I remember. About 1998.
And now… well I don’t know. My parents go to work and I write poetry.
Who gives a shit who blew up the Nord Stream? Russia…. US… Norway. Who gives a shit. the problem, as I see it, you cannot have the “defensive” NATO alliance which should have been phased out after 91, continue to expand, while taking advantage of Russian resources. I think most Russians have some respect for the West and it’s culture (especially Europe), but if this Unfriendly behavior continues, naturally, Russia decides to sell the oil & gas elsewhere. Ya can’t have it both ways. Do ya get it yet??
Live not by Lies!
